date: Tuesday, September 16, 2008 @ 3:10 am
title: Grow. Grow. Grow.
Seldom I can't sleep but today is just one of the nights that I'm pretty wide awake.
I get subdue by the Zzz monster pretty easily:
when I am well-fed, he Zzz me easily.
when I am emo-fed, he Zzz me instantly.
when I am fed-up fed, he Zzz me quickly.
when I am cozy-fed, he Zzz me timely.
But tonight/this morning, I just can't sleep. My whole mind is thinking about:
Who to grow?
What need to grow?
When to start to grow?
Where to start the growth?
How to grow?
But I have the answers. Just sorting my thoughts into simple and workable trained train of thought. Just in case, days I go off track, I will be back on track at once. I am my own brain engineer.
Usually I know when I am startling wide awake is because of 2 things:
Desperate
Disturbed
of what am I affected:
Desperate to see growth happening in CGs and seeing people becoming who they are called to be, in result to see church grow and soar in attendance and strength.
Disturbed to be so desperate. Just can't settle down in the Spirit. Churning alot of thoughts:
Grow in Quality: To have the confident. To Live. Learn. Lead. with Love. Faith. Hope. Now I add one more: Purity.
Grow in Quantity: To stitch my net an inch by an inch each day. To reinforce my cord a twist by a twist each moment. To hurdle my casting over and over again spontaneously.
This is my early morning thoughts: Grow. Grow. Grow.
